i have felt how mad i am.
i have felt that i am going wrong.
i have felt that i am on the path which no one should be on.
but i have not changed.
i have not stopped the sin.
i have just kept being a terrible monster.
that's why i have hardened my will.
i sincerely want to apologize EVERYONE i have devastated.
i am so sorry, again.
and thank you.